Here’s a perfect example of “catching my balance” – I shot and posted this video to YouTube and Facebook yesterday. As I was finishing my Facebook post, the Bean started crying in the other room. I completed the thought on Facebook, launched it, and then spent time with my kid.
That’s not something I would have done before. I would have powered through, made sure the video was posted to the blog AND Facebook AND YouTube; made sure it was properly tagged and SEOd and everything, and not let “distractions” (you see there how I would have called my KID a “distraction” in the past? Seriously, y’all…) keep me from getting the thing done. Now, I would have lived with an amazing amount of guilt for doing that, and it probably would have haunted me for days, but the Type-A Virgo in me wouldn’t have allowed for a break in my routine. She wouldn’t have allowed for change or vulnerability or any issues that came up to “break her stride”.
The truth is, however, sometimes strides get broken. Sometimes life intercedes. Sometimes plans get changed and shifted and tossed to the four winds. Sometimes, shit happens that knocks you down and knocks you down HARD. My Type-A doesn’t ever plan for that. She doesn’t want to allow for that at all.
Thankfully, the balanced side of me is beginning to emerge. It’s not a natural state for me, honestly, but I am working on it. I know that having a baby has helped immensely, because “planning” and “4 months old” don’t really go hand in hand. LOL!
So, during my juicing journey, I got knocked down. Hard. The triggers I talk about in the video below don’t even BEGIN to delve into the depth of why I ate (but I felt that story would take so much time to tell and I wanted to keep it short-ish). However, balance has graciously allowed me to accept my fall, pick myself up, and emerge into a person who really knows what she wants. I wouldn’t have had that without the slip.
Let’s talk about it…